What do you see when you look at me?

I am a very nice, compassionate person. I care about my friends. I care about people. I don't always portray that very well.
I am strong. Sometimes too strong. I was taught it is not ok to cry. I do. No one knows I do. I love people so much. There are people I think about everyday of my life. It usually makes me sad. I don't always portray that very well.
I am smart. I make bad decisions sometimes. I have a good head on my shoulders.I am giggly. I don't always portray that very well.
I am determined. I have no idea what I want. I felt more secure years ago when I knew exactly who I was. Even though I was wrong. I never give up though. I don't even know how I make it through the day sometimes. I don't always portray that very well.
I am beautiful.I don't always believe it. I am self conscious. Sometimes I wonder if I am more beautiful on the outside than the inside. I don't always portray that very well.
I am careful. I follow the rules. Sometimes I think I push my views on other people. I realize this is wrong. I don't always portray that very well.
I try to look inside myself more.As of recent I have found myself looking in the mirror and asking" who are you". I know I've done things wrong. I am trying to rectify those things. I don't always portray that very well.
I believe in myself. I am my worst critic. I don't know if I am on the right path. I want to take things back I have said or done in my past. I think I am a good person. I don't always portray that very well.
I have high hopes for my future. I am still holding on to the belief that somethings are gonna happen. I know they won't. I believe my karma may be back in check. I don't know what I've done to deserve it. I wish I did. I don't always portray that very well.
I believe in God. I want to believe more than I do. Sometimes I am afraid of my beliefs. I don't always portray that very well.
I love my family. It annoys me sometimes talking to them on the phone. I would be nowhere without them. I think my mom is amazing. I don't always portray that very well....

I am finding it very difficult to redefine myself. I am trying to figure out who I am. Figure it out without being Mrs. Adam Haley, without being Adams girlfriend or fiance. Ive spent so long being that I now realize. I have to decide who I am, decide who I want to be. I am, again, working so hard at changing my life and attitude and I realize I can take my life anywhere I want at this point. So when I look in the mirror... at myself... who do I want to see looking back at me?